New Found Freedom

I have been really slacking in the blogging department lately. I haven't wanted to thinking about all the things I need to catch up on but now I've decided if I catch up I catch up if not oh well.
I don't know what has changed in the last week or so but something has changed with me. It's been changing for awhile but especially in this last week. I have an inner happiness that I hadn't felt since before Kira was born. Not that I haven't been happy since that time but there is just a difference. I just had an awakening of sorts. I have one life and I want to make the most of it. I don't care anymore what other people think (not in a negative way) I can't really put it into words. I felt before like I was storing up all this time my time free time but what for? I'm conserving energy but why? Now even though my days are basically the same my attitude towards them is different. I love this feeling it's refreshing it's liberating it's happiness. Last night I was out with my wonderful friend Robin. We went to the gym and then to Starbucks for one of their frozen drinks (strawberry lemonade blend was delicious by the say)I was telling her about this and while I was telling her it felt similar to a testimony experience to me like my emotions were solidified and validated.
It's funny I was going to write about my new found freedom with Kira playing outside all the time with the neighbor kids but I guess the title fits both topics