Inner Peace

There is so much on my mind. I don't usually blog in the middle of the day but I just felt the need to write.  Today was the first day in almost a month that I went to the gym. Between the holidays, going out of town, Lou being home and more than anything the SNOW I had been terrible about going from Christmas break until now.

Welcome back to my world, gym

I loved the energy I felt as I was running on the elliptical and working the machines that work my core and thighs. I felt empowered. I have control over my body, it does NOT have control over me. I will not allow my thyroid to rule my life its MY life not my thyroids life!

I will go back to my routine of going to the gym every weekday. It brings me life, it brings me happiness it makes me feel like me.

I feel like I am finally getting into a place where I am emotionally and mentally ready to move from Provo. The idea of moving has been a continuous battle in my heart and mind.  There's excitement that comes from thinking about having a new house, meeting new people, living in a new state. There is also however the worry that comes from thinking about leaving the place and people I love, leaving my home.

Today as I was playing the piano (another activity that I need to do daily to feel like me) I felt a surge of peace overcome me.  I knew everything would be OK. I was gently reminded that my Heavenly Father loves me, he knows me, Heavenly Father knows and loves Lou, Kira and Josh also. Heavenly Father and the Savior will continue to be with me and my family when we move. I know they will love me just as much in Idaho as they have in Utah.

I also had the thought that I can do anything with Lou by myside.  I am blessed I get to take my best friend along with me in this move. When I start worrying and panicing (because I will) I will pause and remember the feeling of peace I experienced this afternoon.