At Least Five Years!

I have beautiful children. I love my children. They are smart, kind, courteous , well behaved just wonderful little kids all around.
Since having my little Kira and little Josh I have had a lot of health issues. My allergies seem to have worsen considerably, my asthma has gotten worse, I get sick a lot things that were never issues all of the sudden are such. The worse thing is always being tired. I've been blessed with kids who sleep wonderfully, they sleep between 13-14 hours a night and Joshy still naps. So I can get a good nights sleep whenever I want yet I am ALWAYS tired.
For years I have thought that many of my symptoms were in my head that maybe I was just having a hard time adjusting to motherhood so maybe I made these things up in my head to get attention of something. I had no idea. I would go to the doctor and they would tell me I just probably had a virus etc. Its been a frustrating road.
This month however I have found out the root of all my health problems including my PPD. It has only taken FIVE YEARS to discover what is going on. Five years of feeling like crap, five years of moodiness, five years of being constantly tired, five years of no weight loss, ( no weight gain however so thats good). TA TA TA Da... Hashimoto Disease.
Hashitmoto is a form of hypothyroidism. The reason they weren't able to figure this out, because I have had my thyroid level checked after each child and a few other times in the last 5 years is because when they just did a general thyroid level check it would come back normal because my hormones are very low but my intake is very high so apparently it would balance each other out in a general check. However after many blood tests and an ultrasound and a Iodine scan they were finally able to figure out what is going on.
i am so relieved to know that how I feel is not just in my head. Its been going on for awhile they think since I was pregnant with Kira. Thats over five years ago that this probably started. Its why I suffered post partum depression. Its why I haven't felt myself much in the last five years
I am scared though. On Monday I had my Iodine Radiation treatment. Its nothing like Cancer radiation treatment. I swallowed a pill that will slowly kill my thyroid. In 4 weeks I'll have my blood test to check my thyroid levels so they know how much medicine I'll need. I'm scared to have to rely on a pill the rest of my life. I'm scared that I'll never feel like me again.
The children aren't allowed to be around me for 72 hours after I have the treatment so they've been in Salt Lake since Monday with their Nana. We'll pick them up tomorrow afternoon. Its so nice to be able to rely on family to help you out. I know the kids are having a great time.
So I love my kids but as you can tell my health has been the sacrifice I guess to have them. Hopefully now that we know what it is I'll get better. Sharon joked with me that now I can have a third kid since we know whats wrong. I just kind of laughed and said nope two is enough :)